Butter Dreams

My boy will turn 3 soon and we still don’t have much luck at being a second time parents…

What make things worst is, blogging and reading some mommies’ blogs which posted on news that they were expecting… with an unplanned child. Reading all these has some how made the pressure mounting on my side. We have been trying and nothing seems to happen and I am actually sick of trying… So daunting isn’t it? Why it is so easy for some (who don’t want any) and so tough for us (those who really wanted it)??

With Chinese New Year coming, we will be expecting more of ‘when are you going to have a second child?’ questions coming from relatives. I know we can’t avoid it but since the Almighty won’t want to grant us any, there’s nothing we can do… just hope for the best I guess…

We started our application for a better future down under sometime in April and submitted all the documentation in April. Then the hubby went for his IELTS in June and passed with flying colors which helps to add extra points to the application.

A month ago, the agent submitted hubby’s professional certificates for assessment and a few days ago, we got the news that he has passed that too. This means we have successfully cleared the 1st stage of our application.

Now, we have to make the 2nd payment so they can process the next stage… which is the Visa. If we pass this too means we will be granted a PR for 5 years.

Though this is not the best time to make any move, but it will be good when the economy turns around which could be in the next 2 or 3 years time. This will give us substantial time to get everything ready…

Keeping our fingers crossed!

In 2002, I was living in down under happily clutching my bag of books and notes merrily without the slightess idea what may come. Life was good… not much worries except the coming examination which I have to deal with in less than a month time. No big deal since I don’t have to sit for that many papers as most of my work are project based.

Then the bad news came.

There has been news of bombing by some terrorist in Bali… a place where the Aussies love so much for its beautiful beaches and a place for a little getaway. The news channels were blasting with images of flames everywhere in the once peaceful town of Kuta.

All of us were staring at the box gawking away while listening to the news report every day. There were death… many of them and it was a horrible scene. We saw people dying and some heavily injured and on last count, more than 200 lives were taken.

Our life started to change… Being Asians, we are often labeled as one of the ‘terrorist’ since we came from the vicinity. We still do not know who threw the bomb at that popular bar in Kuta beach but tongues started wagging then with lots of assumptions.

Anyway, my cousin was there with me to pursue his studies too. And being a young and ignorant boy man that he was then, I can’t helped but laugh at his antics. His mom was very worried about his safety… well since he was such a mommy’s boy, he’ll do whatever his mom asked him to. His mom told him to be careful and remember to not tell people he came from SEA.

Being curious, I asked him… ‘So, if your mom don’t want you to tell others that you’re a Malaysian, then where should you say you are from?’

Guess what was the joke?

He told me happily… ‘My mom said, if anyone asked, just tell them I’m from Hong Kong lor!’

Sometimes I just can’t help laughing at him… standing at 6 foot 2, double my size but has a heart smaller than the little chick! *faint*

It has been years since I get terrible stomach cramp when it was the time of the month. Last night was one of the most painful episode since the day I became a mommy. I’ve not have such cramps after I delivered my boy.

I heard from many people that such cramps will normally vanished after giving birth due to harmonal changes and I can’t agree more before this episode. Now I wonder what is wrong with me?

After 2 days my stomach is still in pain which is rather unusual. I would normally has it for half a day and everything will go back to normal. The flow is still heavy but hopefully it will get lighter in a day.

I think I have neglected this little diary of mine.

Well, not that I don’t have stuff to write but either I am too preoccupied with the daily chores or when I do wanted to write, the little boy will come and bug me. Then I am still not so familiar with this version of WordPress. I got all stressed up when the orientation of the post did not come out as I wished it would.

Anyway, will be writing more this week when I’ve finished up most of my work… and life goes back to a more normal routine.

Tonight the hubby will be spending the night in Singapore enroute to Vietnam tomorrow morning. Dropped him off to the airport earlier after our shop trip to Bukit Jambul as I need to get some stuff from Kamdar.

It has been months since we last step pur foot at BJ and I was shocked by the way it has turned out… the entire place has been from bad to worst! The place is not being maintained at all… so messy and… just don’t have the word to describe this place…

If not for Kamdar I don’t think I would ever want to go there… again…

Was so tired yesterday that I decided not to do my cake decorations and went straight to bed. However my mind kept telling me that I should wake up and do it as I might not have enough time to complete since the customer wanted to collect it earlier…. but my brain was too tired and I just dozed off.

Then suddenly I had a dream… someone ordered ‘pau’ from me. Errr…. why order ‘pau’ from me??? I don’t make pau to sell…. so weird. And this pau thingy kept bugging me and I finally woke up… ah… it is almost 6am!

I need to wake up early so that I can get my cakes ready and get on with the decorations. The weather is humid as it started to rain when I was about to do the decors… what a bummer! Then my boy woke up and created more chores for me… luckily the hubby is around so he helped me to handle the boy for a while.

Managed to finised before the time and get to nap for a while before the customer come… guess the dream last night really takes a lot of my energy away!

I totally lost the momentum to blog due to my battling with the recent virus attack… which not only dragged me to the bed all the time but loaded me with 2 more victims to care for… *haiyoh* what a stressful week!

Today is already the 9th day but I still don’t feel any better even after 2 visits to the GP getting different medications. The hubby was also in bad shape with a bad case of flu threw in… and not forgetting the boy… he has almost everything I has! Now he is spotted with a slight fever… again!!!! When is this going to end???

Going to go ku-ku soon if this damn virus is not being kicked out soon!

It is so depressing to stay home and can’t eat any nice food!!!! I am so craving for my curry and everything spicy!!!!! aaaarrrrgggghhhh!

And yeah, the Aunty Flow came and visit me 2 days ago means the ‘baby’ is gone! wwuuuuaaahhhhhh!!!

It has been a long time since I feel so ‘chan’. The last two days my entire body is acting up again and I was down with a sore throat and fever in the night. The entire day yesterday, my back was aching so badly that I have to ask the hubby to massage me. It helps but not for long.

Not sure what happened as my throat is feeling so dry… could it be the KFC that I took over the weekend?

This week ordered surged like nobody business and I have to turned down one as I don’t think I could cope if my condition worsen in the next one or two days. If things don’t get better, guess I’ll have to see the doc tonight… *sigh* Really hate to be sick!

The hubby complaint that I’m lack of exercise! aaaarrrggghhh!